One discovery I made about myself since I started blogging is how my perspective about myself differs from most people. For me, so called self is like a cat sitting on a wall that separates the real world from the inner world. When I look at myself, I am looking down onto a community of emotions that interacts with each other like balls on a pool table.
When something happens that affects my inner world, I am sitting on the wall watching the balls move and bounce off walls or collide with other balls. Under high emotion though, the cat will jump onto the table and become a large fast moving ball that knocks everything out of its path. Watch out!